Confusion. The dictionary defines it as refers to loss of orientation (ability to place oneself correctly in the world by time, location, and personal identity) and often memory (ability to correctly recall previous events or learn new material).

My ability to focus is so gone right now. I have put down for the first 19 years of my life. Put them down and tucked them away. Now though, I find that I am still as scatter brained as ever.

When I moved to Virginia in July of 2005, I went through this same feeling. I toyed with the idea of moving to California and working as a writer or doing the same thing in NYC. I started an application for Survivor. I tried to "run off" to the Peace Corps but started coming out of the closet and then took a chance on love.

The following year, I remember bringing home annals and annals of job descriptions and applications. I think I applied to a job for a whole year. I interviewed with the Peace Corps, with four or five universities, even went to an on campus visit at one. The whole time, what I was thinking is that I wanted to do DO DO DO something with my life.

Then I am here again. What is wrong with me? Why can I not focus my attention? Why am I so confused?

You see moving and starting over are things I have to do for my frame of mind. It is now a health issue.